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I wish it weren't like a quarterly post, but I have taken a slight hiatus. I have to be honest with myself and say the reason I fell off the blogger bandwagon was only because I needed a mental break. For some reason I felt obligated to post on here and I know that obligation isn't right.

I have changed a lot in these few months, I embarked on new PUA adventures which includes Online Game, gone deeper into Chakra, Spirituality, compassion, coming from the "heart", and trying to be a good person. I have also been studying Sex and the City (season 1 and part of 2) and trying to understand women on a deeper level. Also my cold reading skills (and rapport skills) are at new levels, I feel I can connect with almost anyone and really tell if someone is speaking the truth to me. The truth is, I feel I have made these leaps and bound not by reading others, but reading and understanding myself.

I come to this blog now from a more defined frame that I am no longer looking at myself as a student, teacher, learner, or whatever... but just as a person, a being, wanting to experience the BEST life has to offer. I seem to naturally come up with "routines" on the go, they follow the same theme but come out differently every time. In other words, the community teaches us about these routines/stories. Well I realized that once we form our identity and a solid, loving frame... those "routines" come out differently and on queue every time. Not to say that my experiences memorizing routines and stories weren't good for me, but just saying that I feel ALL of us have something to offer and once we figure it out, that is our "frame" and from it we get our "routines" or deep conversations.

Another great realization I had was that the standard American idea of "getting the girl" comes from a scarcity frame. The ENTIRE mantra of "get the girl and make her yours" is flawed to me because I believe it implies looking for an object to satisfy your life---and a man/women is no object. I saw the movie "Walk the Line" and it literally made me sick seeing how hard Johnny Cash had to chase June, I'm not sure if that is what happened in real life, but Hollywood really fucks with our minds. Don't get me wrong though, it shouldn't be the girls desperately chasing the guys either, but rather instead of denying our true desires we should embrace them.*

The latest book I'm reading is "Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle and also Stephane's "Girlfriend Training Program" (ideagasms: click here) which offers some incredible insights, though sometimes a bit over the top in a humorous way. A lot of what I listed above comes from those sources. In Stephane's program, he really drives the point that we are all spiritual beings and need to experience life in the present. The implication of this is to stop egotistic thinking, let go of pride and procession, and to embrace the beauty of the current moment---the truth is, it was not easy to accept this now obvious truth. Like most others, I was raised in a very westernized family where spirituality came much further after materials, money, and getting more than my brothers. These new mind sets have really changed the way I see religion, if you guys have been following my posts or read my past ones, I had an amazing revelation that all the world is truly "one" here: http://simulr.com/bigsend_epiphany and until now, I haven't had as much progress with that idea. Now, all this is obvious to me, it makes SO much more sense and makes me feel better about life.

Another interesting occurrence that happened fairly recently is related to "The Secret" (The law of attraction---what you think about most is attracted into your life). For awhile I have been contemplating possible research I could go into if I get a PhD and one of them is superconductors and certain types of material sciences. Now, the "Secret" says that the universe aligns to what you think about most, and something very interesting just happened. Friday night early in December I was supposed to go on this date with a freshman sorority girl, but it didn't work out and she backed out at the last minute (while I was still dressed, mind you). I was fucking bummed, but for some reason I didn't care as much, it didn't affect me that negatively at all. My old roommate called me up not 20 minutes later and asked me to come to his senior Jazz recital at school here, I figured what the hay, I'll for sure go! As I am walking towards the show, a very random, old looking guy approached me (of really many people to choose from) and asked for directions to a building on campus. Normally, I give directions and not make much conversation with such a stranger but for some reason I started asking him a lot of questions along the line of "whats going on at the building" "Did you go to this college" etc etc... it turns out he is a fucking director of documentary movies related exactly to metaphysical shit (including super conductors and many more mystical/scientific pursuits). His web page is here and you can actually see his documentaries on Google Video here. Basically, I have been thinking about metaphysical phenomena in the world, and then after a date being canceled on the same day as my friends Jazz recital, I happen to bump into a director of the exact shit I am into---now we converse through email and I have a feeling he is part of my path for finding answers in this goal (and perhaps I am part of his path and I can help him out one day too).

I want to make so many posts about the latest dates, field reports, and such. I just feel like it is all a part of life and nothing means too much anymore. Getting a kiss isn't that big of a deal, so making a post on it seemed a bit hyped up. I need to form my new years resolutions soon, and I know one of them must be to make it a NIGHTLY (at least 3 times a week) journaling on this blog talking about my life in general, not just making posts about "important things," but everything day to day.


*I have to say, it is great to "get" something that was challenging to catch, but keep in mind the unbelievable divorce rate in western societies...

Posted by BigSend on Saturday, January 06, 2007 at 1/06/2007 01:07:00 PM | Permalink