How I couldn't get over LMR and then got into an hour long set
This is kind of weird, I have been with HB-Ka for the second time but I still couldn't full-monty her. She'd even put my hand on her tits before we even started kissing and we were just in bed.
Well anyway, sorry for the lack of updates. I redid an affirmation for Waking up early only and I swear, I have been waking up early EVERY day. Hell right now its 8:30.
Anyway, HB-Ka wasn't solid game, I haven't run solid game to close yet. I met her at a party and within like 30-40 minutes of knowing her hooked up. When things started getting heavy, she just said "I don't think we should be doing this"
I said "I understand". I wanted to try the freeze out, but that honestly felt too weird. I felt I was kind of upset and trying to hide it, but if I freeze her out it would seem like I am a pouty little biatch. So I need more info on the whole freeze-out process.
Then I had to tell her. I had to be truthful, I'm not looking for a relationship (with her). "I gotta be honest with you, before we do anything. I am only good for a good time at this time in my life... etc" Thank Ulysses for that line. It seems she was looking for a relationship so she said she wasn't looking for a "fuck buddy". Damn!
However, I may change my mind... I mean... well...
Anyway, so yet another night vagina slipped through my fingers, hah.
Whoops forgot to post this. Well anyway, at lunch, every seat was taken, so I mustered up the courage and asked if I could sit with a girl who had a table to herself. Right away I start and assume rapport; I assume rapport very naturally because Suseboy gave me a great reframe: girls on campus are immediately in my extended social circle, so there is no reason to act like it is a frozen, cold approach---they go to my same school, similar teachers, etc etc.
As I have been reading and watching documentaries on Psychology, Sociology, and Spirituality/Metaphysics so much lately, I have a 1000 things to say. So I am sitting with HB-Diamonds who is a solid 8, and I talk to her and have an amazing conversation with her about all that stuff. She is a psychology major too, so that helped.
Anyway, after an hour of talking, I swear it felt like we knew each other, it was extremely natural to get her number. So we exchanged numbers, but I have this feeling she has a boy friend. I'm not sure if its a limiting belief or not, but I can just kind of tell because she was eager to give me the number, then had a slightly concerned look on her face. I don't think I creeped her out in any way, it was a great conversation, so I thinking she has a boy friend.
Well whatever. Its all good, it was an amazing set that is a great way to start off the quarter. I also haven't sarged as much these past couple months because of school (and also because I resolved to that fact that till I am 21 and get a car, sarging is just not easy to get around to).
So again, as Suseboy said... learn about the world, read a lot, travel, do what you can and you'll have amazing things to say and relate to in conversation. Couldn't be more true.
K, My new classes are Comp Sci 2 (second level, hard fucking algorithms and shit), Differential Equations, and another class in Social Studies. I haven't started the latter yet, but I think its a lab/lecture on group dynamics. Fun Fun :) :) no really
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