100% Let Down, I Got the Rejection
Well... it didn't work out. She felt things were moving too fast and wanted to stop.
Sigh...
Okay, since I don't feel like writing out a narrative, I'll just list out the mistakes I made. I know I made these mistakes because I asked her when she started to feel us going downhill...
So it ended with her saying how much of sweet guy I am. I did lead and tried to be dominant, but I am still learning that calibration.
However now that this is over, I am still confident that now I know SO MUCH MORE, I learned SO MUCH from her on what to do, what not to do, etc. Every girl I court, I get seem to get farther and farther in the sarge that I feel pretty confident that I will fuck the next girl who I solidly sarge.
Also it was funny because she said that the day she met me, she got into an argument with a guy and thought all guys are assholes, then she met me.. I feel when we met I acted confident and "nice" but I guess I need to calibrate my "Nice guy" inclination with more dominance and confidences.
I don't want this One-itus bull shit happening to me again. This hurt but I feel this pain is good. I am a late bloomer, normal guys feel this when they are 15 and 16, I am a late bloomer and lost a girl who I had a big crush on. Well, back to affirmations hehe. It is just crazy that she called me twice, came over (walked up a hill) to see me and hook up. Suck me, jack me off, kiss me all over, get freaky (just didn't fuck), but then she just broke it off.
Sigh... back to the lab again.
Every PUA warned me and said the same thing, KEEP sarging even while dating. So fucking true, you have no idea.
One itus.. hehe. I didn't even know I had it!! But I know I will get over this, its just a disapointment. It happened not 20 minutes ago, so here I am.
But I feel I will always remember her as a girl whom I broke the rules with, I broke the "PUA" rules before I was a solid PUA. Its like the inexperienced, new guitarist who trys to sound like Jimi Hendrix without knowing how to Improv. Losing Eve proved to me that I need to keep with the PUA dogma and just because a girl seems into me doesn't mean I can break the rules and turn back into my default Nice Guy self.... ah.
But I want to be a nice guy, I honestly love to make women feel pleasure and I love it when they enjoy my company. The feeling I got from that fulfilled something deep in me and for this past week I have been in a better mood than any other time in my life. But I think Eve realized she was having this kind of impact on me and couldn't really handle it. I became emotionally soft (as I said in the last post somewhere), and opened myself up too much. Fuck guys, she was just my first girl that I got this far with.
Now I study for a huge midterm on monday! Yes!
Fuck Eve's pussy smelled good! How about that hahh!
I'm turning off comments because I am not in the mood for the "helpful" critical advice of "Why did you do this/that/touch/kiss/smell her pussy this early in the sarge or whatever" I feel I know my mistakes. But if you have something to say that will help me and its not something I already know (like pointing out more mistakes) email me please. Email address is on the side bar near the top..
bigsend (at) gmail (dot ) com
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