99% LR: You Have Her, Now Go and Get Her
Holy shit, things are starting to fall into place. I can't explain it, but situations are occurring at the right time in the right order and the right degree. Everything from reading "Emotional Intelligence" to bumping into Suseboy, to talking to Ulysses, to reading "A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man" to sarging with Manipulator (from MM forums) and from taking that boot camp from Grungey10 (click here). [could all this be related to my "optimism" affirmation?]
So I met that tall babe from the party, I wrote the FR. I updated my scale of her to an 8/10 because thinking back, she was fucking hot and I played her down so if it wouldn't work out, I wouldn't care as much. (Funny how I convince myself of things when they aren't true (or I focus on the bad when there is so much more good) just to protect my ego... I gotta work on that some more).
Me and her (lets call her HB-Eve or just Eve because shes my first) had a connection, I felt it on that first date. Serendipitously (man I have been using that word so much) I also bumped into her on Tuesday with my friend Marc as we went apartment hunting. We chilled for about an hour, I felt unsure as to where we were and after sitting in a circle, she asked me to sit next to her. IOI lol
The next day she calls me during class, but we talk after class. I meet up with her in front of the library. There was always this awkward "do we kiss" moment after a hug, but I give her a peck on the cheek anyway (probably not the best move). We vibe, no prolonged kino, just light touchings as the conversation progresses.
But then...
At 12:30 that night, I get a call from her, she is in the area and coming back from a party and wants to say "hi" for a minute.
Ohhh before I get to that, let me explain serendipitous event #17, Gurngey10 called me up on Tuesday just to fucking check up on me. shiiit that guy just called to see how I was doing. Well he gave me some GREAT tricks to try on her. I gotta tell you guys this, Grungey if you are reading this and don't want me to publish it, let me know and I'll remove it...
Spin kiss!! She came to my place at 12:30, and I told her "hey! I have a surprise for you! follow me" Took her into my room and said, "Close your eyes and keep them close. Trust me its good. Now give me your hand." I spun her around, then when she came back around, I kissed her right on the lips... and wow that was an amazing kiss. I felt so much energy from it, it was perfect. PERFECT first lip-kiss!! I only wish that were my very first kiss with a girl hehe
Well we did everything but full monty. (Shite I hope she never sees this blog. I may have to archive this post after a few weeks. I can see myself in my first LTR with her if things work out).
So I am excited to try MasterClass's and David Shade's techniques for female arousal... and I am inexperienced so I did my best. I hope she comes back so I can keep practicing.
One weird thing about me is... blow jobs just don't feel that "good" not even from any girl I have gotten a blow job from. I think its from watching porn and seeing blow job scenes and I'd associate blow-jobs to my hand jacking off.
Well anyway, The next day I had even more serendipitous events, bumping into Suseboy. Since I made some newbie mistakes on Eve... after we hooked up, I got emotionally soft. I gave her compliments, made her breakfast, and just got a little clingy...
Suseboy gave me his wise advice... Make sure she is giving more than I am giving. Ask her for favors, lead and make sure she follows. Be selfish at times. Suseboy told me his current girlfriend left all the guys who were "nice".
Another issue is Eve thinks things are moving too fast. I think its because she can tell I am on a few steps ahead of her in wanting a relationship. She isn't at my level of wanting, which can be bad. So, Suseboy prescribed asking for favors and stop giving till I am receiving a lot more.
Then I call up Grungey10 and we have an HOUR long conversation where he just talks and helps me out, giving me great dating ideas, after idea. Not sure if I can write them all. They include creating a fantasy for her and using lots of push pull in the sack.
Then on top of that, Dr. Paul asked me to look at one of his versions of a new ebook he has about outter game style. Dr. Paul wrote MindOS, which I feel is probably the most complete inner-game/self-help system I have ever seen. It takes all the most useful stuff from anger and anxiety management and puts them into one elegant model. (Link to mindOS is on the side).
I haven't gone through the entire eBook, but there seems to be a lot of great ideas to use on dates which I am excited to try.
So things are finally falling into place. I have been in the community for about 2 years and only recently have I sought teachers and even took a boot camp, now things are accelerating. I feel like I am understanding the "Matrix" more.
On top of that, I got a hold of Shark's 8CD set awhile ago and now I am finally listening to it. Holy fuck. This shit is a mind fuck, Shark needs a fucking honorary PhD in sociology. I'll write more on it later. There is almost too much to say as I have already taking a course on Sociology so listening to Shark puts me back on that level.
Till then.. so much to say so much to say so much to say... (or maybe I am getting more social and just wanna talk/write so much... butt I'm lazy)
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